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Those that once was friends, I still love ya and hope that my pleasure brings you comfort in this time of needed space and growth. By that I don't mean that my pain is your comfort. Forgiveness and sincerity in doing so has already been at my house so I hope its at yours! We are all too grown to let hatred, bitterness, and false joy takeover our lives.

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Wednesday, July 18, 2012

The Dream That Changed My Life As I Know It

I feel some type of way these days.  It's calming but at the same unsettling.  Right now the most unsettling thing in my life is my career.  It's no where right now.  I've been working hard for 4+ years to secure my destiny in this world and the devil is hard at work too!  Trying hard not to be discouraged, but I am.

This feeling is almost one of defeat.  I feel defeated right now.  Emotionally the tears want to come but I have a little fight in me left.  I know this was what I was meant to do.  Maybe, this struggle is to prove the fact that I should have been doing this in the beginning.  I fought it at first but when I gave in I felt like my life began!  I saw some purpose and meaning in this world that I never felt before.  It made me want to change and has changed who I am for the better.  My outlook is more forgiving and flexible about others.  Short comings are dealt now with finding out the life history instead of condemning them for being dumb. 

I'm able to look at life in this new perspective and can respect the fact that we all come into our own understandings at different times in our life and our relationship with God is reached at different levels.  That is what makes being a human being so beautiful.  This pursuit of education and understanding has allowed me to forgive faster, love more, and move forward.  Before I was the angry black woman who didn't trust, limited love, and definitely didn't understand. 

I like who I have become and continuing to transition in the respect lady and woman that I want to become.  Life is a game and we only have one player, and one life.  How do you choose to live and grow in it?  I decided long ago that it was worth living and God has brought me too far just to drop me.  This too shall pass!  It's coming, I can see it and I can feel it.  Now, the question is when and I dare not get weary and quit!

If you believe in your dream and your hard work keep pursuing.  I hope this is my testimony that I not only needed to let out but someone else can get revived or motivated by. 
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